Think, one month later and the test has come: he went clubbing with his colleagues tonight! And you know what? I'm (almost) totally fine with it! Its taken a lot, one month and it even took finding Scrump and it took a huge healing from God (that, I believe, is still happening over a period of time), but you know what? I'm almost there!

 

Let me explain (what finding Scrump means). I found Scrump in Hong Kong Disneyland. The moment I saw it/him/her, that was it. I remembered how in the movie Lilo and Stitch, Scrump was that sometimes castaway but much loved doll that Lilo made herself. There was one scene where her friends make fun or Scrump and she gets so mad and upset, she throws Scrump in the dust and runs away. Seconds later, she comes running back, apologetic and hugs Scrump tightly in apology. And who can forget Scrump next to "her friends"- decorated spoons in a jar?

So I really connected emotionally with Scrump and though it was quite symbolic and whenever I was battling that jealousy/self-worth problem inside of me, I'd hug Scrump and imagine him/her/it absorbing all that negative emotion.



And its quite nice how Scrump has been passed around. It stayed with Joie for a night after the long talk we had and, well, just in general, Scrump has been shared. In Youth Camp and eXcess camp. Its nice to see it being hugged by others.

So Christmas is over, and I'm really thinking about what Jo told me: did you ever consider that God might not want you to get a job? I'm starting to really think that now, because the idea of really selling my knitwear is becoming more of a reality everyday. Maybe thats why I never heard back from all three places I sent in my resume and testimonials to!

So tomorrow I'll probably do a post to sum the year up, although funnily enough, it seems like dates are meaning lesser to me and I'm just enjoying my time. For example, for our one year anniversary we didn't do anything special at all. But his hello kiss was extra warm and little things like that made it a very good one. Anyhow, tomorrow I'm spending it with him and his secondary school friends. Keep your fingers crossed that they have a good impression of me tomorrow!

AND THANK GOD! I asked him to heal my face of the rashes (that resulted in swollen eyes) in 3 days and he did! Hooray for the Big Man up there!

And even bigger HOORAY. Uncle Pat lent me his keyboard so although I don't have one myself, I've got one thats lent and is quite playable!! I tell you, if the knitting things come to pass, God will have like worked in an even more mysterious way than he has already, and that is really saying something.